520 - It All Falls Apart

17th Sep 2011, 12:00 PM in Stuff
It All Falls Apart
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Tim 17th Sep 2011, 12:00 PM edit delete
Tim
I always thought that there'd be a point at which my 6th Form friendship group stopped being. But it's not like that at all. It's been more a slow disintegration as people have one by one moved onto college, finished their subjects and just generally disappear from Becket. And in it's place are the new Year 12s, who I don't know any of, and don't talk to yet. It feels weird. Like I'm in a totally new place, and it's just me and Shiv left of the ten of us who used to sit in the tiny lobby outside our form room in years 10 and 11, messing about and talking about the most ridiculous things possible. It kinda feels like I've moved to a different school, and only just realised it. Like the world's just slowly disolving around you, leaving only the background it was once set against.

I'm not going to be corny and say "I wouldn't have changed a thing", because that's horseshit. There are plenty of moments I'd like to have changed. For starters, I'd have let myself go and taken a hammer to that son of a bitch who fucked shit up during years 8 through 10. I'd have stood up for myself at some point. And I wouldn't have apologised for my blog and I'd have defended it like I should have.

Here's to growing up.

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pantstall 18th Sep 2011, 8:19 AM edit delete reply
pantstall
I feel your pain. I lost contact with all my friends when I went to college, and have only now, after 2-3 years, managed to reconnect with some of them....